welcome to my wall, desires and needs as i feel they might be, its an evolving place! the mental aspect of this culture has me enraptured. power exchange as it contains trust, vulnerability, accountability, and responsibility is especially an interest. the last 10+ years have been very vanilla, so just assume we are starting with an open book with only a few cliff notes written in it.
4/8/26 update
Ok, here's the deal. Ive been on here about 2 ish months. And on fetlife, kinda joined a club and im currently second guessing everything i thought i knew and wanted. I was so sure I was a solid sub, and a brat, etc. But now im finding i really enjoy letting my more dominant side through. So may lead to being a switch? Idk. Trying everything out so i can see how i like stuff.
Is this a ride you want a ticket for?
feel free to pass if you dont want to put in the work with me.
2/26
im currently a bratty alpha sub but evolving, . its not in my nature to be *** or give it up easily. i dont trust easily and i guard my peace, i hold A- type jobs (control freak) but in my private life i want to feel safe and taken care of. i am very good at quickly learning the strengths, weakness, and insecurities of my partner that would lead to unpredictability ie; lack of control, temper/anger, insecurities, ego. i have my own insecurities and weakness of course, im not immune to the human condition.
im looking for a partner not a fuck boy or drop in.. i know this isnt an easy ask, im very open to meeting and seeing where things go as long as intensions are known on both sides . i dont engage in intimacy without connection, both mental and emotional, i dont relax/enjoy/engage without trust.
my love language is caring for someone, pushing buttons to receive repercussions, bringing them pleasure. confidence is key, not aggression. if you don't know the difference, learn it!
in a partner, i want a Man, be Calm, Capable, Confident, and Kind. these attributes belong to a person who can truly handle themselves and their partner without anger and ***. if you just want rough sex im not interested.
i deeply yearn, seriously desire to feel delicate and girly. Im a 180# professional chef, horse trainer, former powerlifter, defensive pita..this doesnt mean im into age play or want a sugar daddy, it means my partner needs to be more masculine than i am, able to play a little rough, and not be intimidated by me.
